Wee Thing

Going somewhere?

"This floral-fruity mist is a great way to refresh tired senses on
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Add 9 drops of lavender and 7 drops of orange essential oil to 1-2/3
ounces of distilled water. Place in a spray bottle or atomizer.
Shake the bottle vigorously, then close your eyes and lightly mist
your face or personal space. 

   This Daily Aromatherapy Tip is brought to you by AromaThyme.com."

I've also added it to my own page HERE under Letter of Comfort: Aromatherapy, listed under the header above, where you can easily find it again later.

Ahhhh ... just a few short months ago on my step ...

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Not a Stay-at-Home Day

Since Shelly left on Wednesday morning, I have cooked nothing but leftovers and done no dishes whatsoever but for rinsing out a mug this morning to pour my coffee into.

I guess today's the day. But there are better things to do! Emil's going with his group home folks to the Christmas bazaar in Margo (my home town)(have I told you that before? only 1000 times), where Karen has a table selling lefse and cheese buns (she is famous for her baking) and stained glass. I'll meet him there and we plan to drive out to the farm to see Uncle Neil, as Emil reminds me that we haven't seen him since August. How that can be, I don't know. It's a time thing that is beyond me.  Where it goes, nobody knows.

Last weekend when we dropped in on Everett, Shelly took an interest in the videogame he was playing when we got there. He was pleased to give her a crack at it.

Tracks in the Snow

I think a white-tail deer made this track, but hoofprints weren't clear. What's your guess? Anyone?

We also saw, Shelly and I upon a walk, the furry foot and bony foreleg of a beast that I believe belong to a badger. I won't show you the pictures I took (because I wanted another opinion regarding the animal's identity). It had paw pads like those of a dog, but claws more than an inch long and slightly curved. There was some fur left on the foot. I didn't think there were predators for badgers, but am told coyotes can kill them.

I'm going to go look on Google images, see what's what.

And there was a large owl in the trees by the yard, but I couldn't get a good photo.

Shelly Comes Calling

Out come the Christmas decorations! Christmas carols on the radio!

And what a nice visit we had. We didn't go anywhere but to town to see Emil and Everett. I put the brakes on for some of Shelly's schemes (Let's clean the porch. No!), and she lit a fire under my ass for doing a few things (Let's start decorating for Christmas. Okay!).

We chewed celery and sipped on vodka caesars one evening. Shelly's internet at home is expensive while here it's pretty much unlimited, so she indulged her addiction to Pinterest.  Lots of great arts and craft ideas there, to be sure.

Between the two of us, the dishes were handled (four hands, light work). Yippee!

Shelly's hands were free when she wasn't working on her fabric project, making Christmas decorations or doing a crossword, so I unfolded my quilt and got out the sewing kit and she was content for many hours and so was I; help was here.

Emil at his new job, sanding recycled flooring to make art.

Organize handwritten recipe cards in a digital format and have them made into fabric for dishtowels. Shelly plans to make aprons with copies of recipes written out by her sister, nieces, daughters, herself, and friends.

It's our jaws that should be tired, as there weren't too many hours when we weren't talking. But I am tired tonight. Shelly left for Edmonton this morning when I left for the office in town, and I've been yawning for hours. It's been late nights and lovely sleep-ins though; no complaining here.

'Bless her heart' is all I can say.

I've Got Company

And what do you do when you get company? I put them right to work.

Shelly arrived at 6 p.m. Friday, when we still had two hours ahead of us at the office.

Finally going to use that mix you gave me, Cathy. 

She arrived with a project that has to be done using photos, so we have been diddling around with the computers, among other things. (More on that later; I'll have to show you the project.)

I think it's pretty good! Shelly doesn't want a second glass though. 

And then since 8 o'clock that night ...
We have been doing exactly as we darn well please.

The pussywillows think it's spring.

Journal 1980

Can you relate to this, Everett?
"It may be silly but sometimes the future looks so bleak when you have no money and no goal-oriented dreams, and everyone's asking you "What are you going to do next?"

In 1980 I was 21.
This must've been an argument with Dad:
"It's not that the situation is bad; we had a good scream tonight; I did anyway, yelling and crying and stomping my feet. Don't think we got anywhere but got some hostile feelings out into the open; should've tromped more on them than each other. I think tonight was the first time I did more yelling than he did."

I set up a tent at the campgrounds:
"Sitting with legs stretched out to the fire, this book on the ground beside me; a frog hops onto the page and sits there a few moments, taking in the heat of the flames. Surprising. When a mouse darted out from behind the log on my other side I raised my voice and told it to get the hell away. It did."

One Friday:
"Looks like it'll be a good afternoon. Out on top of my picnic table, nude already in the sun. I intend to enjoy it thoroughly."
...
"Hmph. All my hopes for an afternoon of naked solitude — dashed. Strangers pulling up, Dad bringing my mail (big hug — how I needed that). Cameron rips in on his motorcycle as I'm taking off my T-shirt again — he backs up and drives off. Comes back and hollers from a distance "You decent?" before he'll come over.

Grandpa Johnson died on July 5, and in August I was living in Yorkton with a job helping Vietnamese refugees get settled.
"I hate being downtown, feeling so alone on the streets and feeling a plastic mask forming on my own face, and losing the battle to keep it off."

Oh my god. Things really do not change all that much:
Sept 1980
"Have to remind myself throughout the day to stay slow, take my time, there is no fire anywhere.
The golden rule: Do One Thing After The Other."

...

"Saturday morning; the phone rings - who's calling me on Saturday morning? It's Mom, just to talk - that feels good, there is love between us somewhere. I was surprised ... 'I guess she does like me!' "

Wed, Dec. 10:
"Got into M.S.'s car yesterday morning to go to Regina and soon found out that some kook has shot John Lennon ... Murdering a Beatle! What f'ing next?"

One Day to the Next

It was still dark when I got up at seven and was informed that there had been three deer in the flowerbed this morning: a doe and her two young ones.

I'll fashion something to set frozen crabapples on for them, assuming they'll be back. Last fall I put gallon pails of crabs in the freezer in case it was another starvation winter for deer, like the one before. It wasn't and there's no point having the apples go through another winter in the deep freeze. 

English muffins got made yesterday, but guess who forgot to add the tablespoons of honey so they aren't very good. The dough didn't get that extra bit of help it needed.

The first Christmas card has arrived in the mail. They are few and far between in recent years; I don't send any at all. This one came from Holly near Edmonton. Twenty-six years ago, the sole reliable wage-earner of her family, Holly brought me her four-month-old baby and occasionally her five-year-old, Karl, to look after while she went to work every weekday. 

"You were the straightest hippie chick I ever met!" writes Holly in the card. "Karl always thinks of you when there is raisin bread."

Emil was quite jealous, being only a year old himself and accustomed to all his mom's attention. I also looked after two other little boys, and baked and delivered six loaves of bread to a local store every morning. 

I was on the go, for sure. Probably still haven't recovered! I remember Gord taking my arm one evening in the kitchen as I whirled from counter to table and back again, and saying "Just stop for one minute." 

Looking back at the energy I had, and the everyday ambition, it's not hard to see the difference between then and now. Example: for many years I made a lot of Christmas treats for my own family and to give away; now, none, or it's rare. We don't need 'em and neither does anyone else, pleasant as they are to enjoy at this particular time of year. I no longer feel compelled to be the provider. Now it's all I can do to keep up with the dishes and get out for a walk every day when I'm not in town.

One day

The next

What's the Big Deal about Woolf?

Listen to this and maybe you'll figure it out.

Hodge Podge

Scott got busy doing some finishing work on the kitchen cabinets when Sunday was melty:

Jenna Doodle kept him company

Apparently a moose has been peering through our living room window:

photo taken from inside window, looking almost straight down

I brought home three No Trespassing signs to discourage hunters from killing moose and deer here. They won't help any if they don't get put up. Scott says they need to be mounted on boards first or they're no good. 

I got this year's feeding station set up for the chickadees and woodpeckers, our main users. The magpies too will benefit from it. No one likes these noisy birds but threats to shoot them are not carried out, and that's fine with me:

Sunflower seed purchased directly from farm east of Kelvington.

From hardly any birds around, to dozens of them. Today, the aforementioned but also pine siskins and a pileated woodpecker. A PILEATED WOODPECKER has only been seen once before in this yard since we moved here. Exciting! It didn't take anything from the feeders but lit on the maple tree for a few moments only and then flew over to the oak tree right outside the living room window, where I got a great view of it though it didn't stay long.

It's all about the light.

Hand-Me-Down Mink

Just imagine ... the "teased out" thread from the Achilles heel of a caribou ...

The author's reference to the skin of unborn animals reminded me how unnecessary it is to wear the skins and furs of animals at all anymore now that we don't have to, or those of us who don't live in the far north don't. Our covetous love of fur and leather — our sense of being entitled to it, even — must be a throwback to our primitive ancestry. My parka has wolf fur on the hood and cuffs, and my hand-me-down mink* is, well, mink. I appreciate the warmth, lightness, beauty and possible irreplaceability of these items, but they are not essentials. I like my leather belt, my leather shoes and my leather purses, and have not yet given them up for synthetics. I don't believe we need to eat animals either, but I like ground beef, pork and a medium-rare steak once in a while.

It's an example of where I am not really who I'd like to be. I rationalize not having the courage of my convictions. Aunt Jean worked for the mink coat, it was valuable to her, and she gave it to me when she could no longer wear it. I appreciate that, respect it, and honour her gift. The wolf fur was on the best parka I could find and afford without having to shop the whole world over. I can zipper the fur off the hood and cuffs, but then my wrists and face don't have that notable added protection. It's there now and I'm trying to live with it. That's the least I can do to appreciate what is left of what the animals lost. But I'm not proud of myself.

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An email from the library says this book is overdue. An online excursion reminds me there are no more renewals left. Back it must go before more fines are incurred. "Squeeeeeeee!" as some of my internet acquaintances have been known to say, but which I use with irony here. It is no big deal to pay a couple dollars in library fines if that's what it takes to keep a book till I'm ready to part with it.

The author mentions my great-great aunt Alma several times. She was a nurse matron in Mayo back in the day.

*The hand-me-down mink has been mentioned before. HERE.

Buddha

I've fallen in love with a Buddha candle-holder.

This photo of Lou's is now on my desktop and I am on the hunt for one of my own.

http://loutoyou.blogspot.ca/

There are many Buddhas out there but this is the only one I've seen so far (in my internet search) that I want to sit with.

Winter has Arrived

The big, warm (but not heavy!) parka came out yesterday, and beautifully warm it was, too, in spite of the nasty wind and snow. I was going to take my ski pants to Kathy Price on Main St. for sewing repair but the wind was so mean I couldn’t make myself go outside till it was time to quit for the day.

Then, coming home, it was so icy in town that I nearly went off the road at least once. Even driving like a little old lady (not that speedy one from "past Wadena") didn't save me.

The quilt I started with Mom's help in 2004.

Last night the wind howled so fiercely that several times I was worried the roof might blow off. Ducky was worked up. His little toenails were clip-clippitting over the floor much of the night as he paced.

It’s the same this morning. This feels like winter.

From my back step

Back at 'Er

True to her ancestry, at least on one side of it (that would be the Benson side), little Lexi-Lu loves her ice cream. It's the only thing that brings her to the kitchen when there is company at the table.

Her mother had a pair of lamps for sale, and I was the purchaser, so off I went to Margo yesterday afternoon, or more specifically to my niece and nephew's farm just outside of town, to have a cup of tea and a visit. My sister Karen (Lexi's grandma) came over too; she lives only a mile or two away.

Except for taking Scott to the emergency department on Saturday, this was the first time I'd been out of the house in four days. I got home again just as it was getting dark, and within an hour the two lamps were shining brightly in the living room. Yay! I'll be able to read comfortably in there, and maybe even tackle the quilt Mom and I started 10 years ago. I'll be doing a happy dance on the day it is finally finished.

My great-niece Lexi, who had a secret to tell: "There's a baby in Mommy's tummy."

Now it's snowing and blowing viciously out there and I've gotta head for town before a blizzard develops. Oh ... and breakfast. Food first! Clothes won't hurt either.

From the Top

For your listening pleasure ... well okay, for mine ... I don't know about you ... but this album is on my personal Top 10 list.

CLICK HERE TO LISTEN TO IT

Perspective

The more things change, the more they stay the same?
Yes and no.
As I go, reluctantly, haltingly, through old journals, I find I have been writing down dreams since I was a teenager. I have been writing down recipes too (see the RECIPE COLLECTION for one I tore out and tried last week).

I also came across this exchange between Mom and me. It was probably an exercise from some book, maybe The Artist's Way or something.

While many things on this list are probably common to most children, some of them are particularly noticeable in Emil; for instance, liking and remembering people and noticing anything that has changed in their homes or appearances, and the insistence on routine. Everett displays some of the demand for perfection.

As a child, Emil loved this painting of the Old Bartley Place, as the family calls it. Built by my great-grandparents, lived in by successive family members over the generations, it has a special place in my own childhood memories. When Emil and I stayed there the summer he was three years old, it hadn't been lived in for a long time but we both loved it there, in spite of the moths and mice! Emil still talks about it and wants to go see it, even if just to drive by.
Aunt Reta's husband Carl painted the house and yard many years ago. Both have gone through a number of transformations since then and the property hasn't belonged to or been lived in by anyone in the family since ... well, since me and Emil 24 years ago.

Right now this painting hangs in the guest room. 

***


Last night after going to bed I listened to Michael Enright on CBC radio, talking to a professor OF peace studies over in the United Kingdom. The man said that in spite of the violence we have been seeing in the past 20 years, there are actually more countries living in peace now than there have ever been before; that we have every reason to be hopeful for the future, because there are fewer wars and less conflict than ever.

LISTEN TO THE INTERVIEW

They Say Thought Comes First

10:10a.m.

Do fear and anxiety create certain types of thoughts, or is it the other way around?

I sometimes wake up thinking about all the material possessions that will have to be dealt with when I die; the undeserved load it will be on someone if I don’t “take care of business” beforehand. I think about getting started putting those affairs in order and getting rid of all the possessions I can live without. I then feel burdened and afraid I won’t have the energy or time to do it all.

It’s a good thing I have something to grin at first thing every morning when I look into the bathroom mirror at my hair sticking up in all kinds of wild conglomerations.

Corey Story

What a lovely verse!

Autumn morning light

poured through the kitchen window

illuminating the breakfast table.

Like a prayer, unspoken but heard.

It was written by COREY AMARO at the beginning of an entry on her blog, which is always worth a look and a read. Corey is my main inspiration for posting something every day. I am never disappointed when I go to her webpage; she has always been there with something to say or show me. 

Scott waits to see the doctor.

Meteor, Strep Throat

"I found a video that is like when I show you how to play a videogame."

Everett said this when I got to his place last night after work.
By the time I had watched it with him (and he was right, for sure; it could almost have been him and me on that couch. I'll add the link when he sends it) and we had visited a bit, it was 7:30. He didn't feel like cooking and neither did I, so we walked downtown for supper.
He had his usual.
I promised you a picture, and you shall have it. See below.

I had the Chinese food smorg; for me, mostly vegetable chop suey.

Did I tell you we had a meteor go over on Sunday night? Through our living room window it looked like lightning had lit up the entire sky, and a minute later the house shook. They are saying the meteor hit the ground somewhere in east-central Saskatchewan, which is where we live. A friend in Kelvington, which is a half-hour northeast of us, posted on FB that she saw the fireball's flames.

Scott's got strep throat and went to the doctor today — that's when you know he's feeling rough. Anyway, the doctor said "You've just got a cold" and sent him home without a prescription. Honest. The boy's got razor blades in his throat and a two-ton truck on his chest. He knows when he's got strep — he has had it quite a few times — and the doctor didn't have the sense to listen to him or try to help.

Effin doctors, sometimes.

The drive home through the dark countryside this evening was sad, listening to the news about Paris.
Effin people.

Doctor Kate plugged in the kettle and made Scott some yarrow and spearmint tea, with strict instructions to drink a mug of it every hour till he goes to bed, and to do the same tomorrow. Ya gotta do something in hopes that things don't get worse. Strep throat is dangerous. You don't mess with it. You don't take it lightly. I bought Fisherman's Friend lozenges and NeoCitran cold and flu mix for Scott while picking up groceries (comfort food was on my menu), so he should be okay. Except maybe I'll get him to put VicksVapoRub on the soles of his feet, and then socks, before he goes to bed.

Poor guy, he'll soon be hiding from me.

Everett tucks his french fries into a grilled cheese sandwich. 

And here's the video he showed me.

On Writing

A book I can heartily recommend: Stephen King's On Writing.

The first half is autobiographical. Loved it.
The second half is about how he writes and what works for him as both writer and reader.

A few quotations:

"Writing is refined thinking."

"No one can be as intellectually slothful as a really smart person; give smart people half a chance and they will ship their oars and drift ... dozing to Byzantium, you might say."

"... the job of fiction is to find the truth inside the story's web of lies."

"People love to read about work."

"I'll take a moment to call up an image of the place, drawing from my memory and filling my mind's eye, an eye whose vision grows sharper the more it is used ... You'll find it easier to accomplish the more you attempt it."

"In many cases when a reader puts a story aside because it 'got boring,' the boredom arose because the writer grew enchanted with his powers of description and lost sight of his priority, which is to keep the ball rolling."

" ... unspoken contract that exists between writer and reader — your promise to express the truth of how people act and talk through the medium of a made-up story."

As the Day Goes On

9:40 a.m.

In recent years there are sometimes moments when I remember that I’m mortal and may not have much time left, maybe not even next week, maybe not even tomorrow. I ask myself, then, if there is anything I’d rather be doing, have always wanted to do. There isn’t. 

Okay then, am I making the best of each day? Well, maybe I’m not making the best, but I’m pretty happy with where I live and what I do. There could be more creativity, more accomplishment, and definitely more loving joyfulness, healthful physical activity, and beauty. Not only am I open and receptive to those; I crave them. Don't we all?

The big picture is pretty much what I want it to be.

The details are where I could put some extra attention.

10:23a.m.

I’ve been clearing kitchen counters, wiping them and the stove, putting things into the sink, putting other things away, starting a pot of oatmeal porridge, measuring ingredients for raisin rye bread, washing and draining raisins, organizing the spice drawer, and various other tiny tasks, perfectly content, still in my housecoat, munching on an apple.

12:05p.m.

I think of all the people who aren't enjoying my good fortune and blessed life; those without homes, those separated from loved ones; those who don't feel safe, those who are ill and suffering, those who are grieving a recent death.  I'm grateful to be where I am. 

12:31p.m.

The dryer was banging so loudly I had to take two pairs of jeans and a sweater out so that it could spin. Since I was down there anyway, I've ended up carrying bags of recycling up the stairs and out to the porch, where it's handy to grab on the way out the door. One more long-forgotten task, halfway completed.

Now that I've heated myself up via several flights up and down the stairs, the snowy air outside is calling to me ... .

Image Source: CBC News

I have put in my order for a poppy like this, and whatever it costs me, I'll make a donation in the same amount to the local Legion or something.